Soulful Scatological Awareness

My modus operandi in life is to continually focus my lens (be it camera or personal perspective) toward what can be appreciated.IMG_8951

Today, I am going to appreciate that I’ve managed to deal with a lot of shit. AND, when I say shit, I mean it literally….
(as well as emotionally, physically, mentally, empathically, psychically, soulfully etc.)   We ALL have. The shit’s getting real! And…’the shit’ is about BEING REAL.

There’s a lot of soul awareness happening in this scatological humouring of life here.

Honestly, it’s been a crappy few weeks in several ways.
We’ve all been feeling that, both personally and globally. We are all dealing with our personal and collective shit…. Some of it is even spewing close to home in various ways.

Here at my home, I really have honestly been dealing with actual “shit.” The parallels just now began to make me laugh with awareness. I’ve been cleaning up seemingly endless, and continual, dog poop for twelve plus days now. I can actually begin to laugh at life’s stinky straightforward ‘in your face’ message.

I get it. It’s time to deal with our shit!!!

For this woman born in the Chinese Year of the Dog, I’m feeling like my own two dogs are giving me that message loud, clear and full-on smelly messy. On 11/11, my daschund/chihuahua mix, my soul pup Kizmet, had just been pronounced fully healthy and healed from her frightening ordeal after inadvertently ingesting rat poison weeks earlier. Then the day after being given this clean bill of health, my inquisitive dog’s phenomenal olfactory acuity led her to another ‘not so great’ tasty treat. I kid you not, the morning immediately after being cleared of that month-long un-fun scary adventure, she got into my husband’s partially zipped canvas work bag to feast on an entire quart-size Ziploc bag of freshly made elk meat jerky. My hubby let me know about it and warned me to keep an eye on her. I thought she’d processed it swiftly with the one enormous blowout she had later that evening. I was wrong. After a week of constant diarrhea, Kizzie was finally clear of her anal adventures. I breathed a sigh of relief….literally. That relief lasted just one day. THEN….our other tinier dog began her own version of those same rear-end adventures. I’m guessing she ate a few pyracantha berries off a bush in the backyard (even while being closely monitored by we humans.) Ugh… I’m at a loss to know what’s up. I just know that my sweet Yorkie, Misty, woke me in bed five days ago by messing everywhere – in the bed with me. Yeah…. YUCK! Disgusting pretty much describes it. And now, I’ve been washing sheets, pillows, towels, cloths, floors, rugs and doggie beds for days straight. Today, I’ll take this one into the veterinarian to get checked out. Hopefully, she is nearing the end of her own genuine “shit” storm.

PHEW!

And…while all this “shit” has been pervading our home, I’ve been moving through clearing more old ‘shit’ from my psyche. I’ve been bravely and clearly witnessing old emotional patterns and dynamics coming up within myself and with many people in my family and circles of friendship. Compassion reigns but there’s still shit to deal with…

Yeah… seriously, I am claiming success in dealing with shit right now. Giving myself a genuine inner Amen To THAT!!

Offering the same full-fledged HiGH Five to each and everyONE of you that are courageously owning who you truly are and dealing with the sometimes stinky ‘shit storms’ that ensue when you do. Believe me, it might feel and smell bad for a time and yet ‘in the end’ it feels SO incredibly clean and clear to be real, healthy and genuinely authentically ourselves. I feel the next level of that coming ON full throttle for me now. Inner ‘Thumbs up’ for myself there!

By the way, those of us who are dedicated to being aware, conscious and ‘beautifully messily’ divinely human all know that we’ve got to take full responsibility for our lives. That means recognizing and processing our own shit while being compassionate with ourselves (and others) and simultaneously loving ourselves into our unique humble magnificence. Sometimes, amidst all that, our best teachers and healers are our loving animal companions.

An energy healer mentor once shared with me that animals are such profound, compassionate beings and healers that they will “take on” the excess energies of humans in order to balance any extremes of energy around them. It is a natural role for them, one of protection, healing, love and balancing. It was an epiphany for me at the time.

That awareness just came to me again today…. Hopefully, if my two sweet soul pups did take on some of my emotional clearing energy the past two weeks, then they have cleared it through their own systems now. Let’s hope that “shit” is done.

And now… after enough years of diving deep to clear my own emotional shit and doing my own inner work, I know that the filthy stuff, be it dog poop or inner crap, truly will not last forever…..

It feels good to remember that. “This too shall pass….” (and sometimes it does have to go through the intestines to do so. LOL!)

Autumn’s Grace

Autumn Magic

Autumn arrives …..

Her Grace asks us to ‘let go’ like the leaves upon the trees.
What is ready to leave within you?

Are you giving yourSelf the time to hone in…
to recognize your needs and your natural rhythm of life?

Are you honoring who you are now by blessing and releasing what was… so that you may savor and live in ‘what IS?’

Honor your precious energy and your beautiful self.
BE with You, right now, and feel that deep love that you are. ❤

~ DeAnne

I “Queened” my Closet & Life.

Image source: Do It Girl on Facebook

Image source:
Do It Girl on Facebook

I “Queened” my closet today! 

It’s remarkable how a woman cleaning her physical closet experiences such a journey of Self. It’s a cleansing, remembering, self realizing, ‘letting go’ and life honoring experience. I actually appreciated every moment of it today.

Now I have a ‘Queened’ closet and a “Queened’ Life! Here’s to treating ourSelves with honor.
Blessings to you each and always, all~ways, So Much Love.  D*

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This Moment

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I awoke this morning to the soothing sounds of rain cascading down upon our Mojave Desert.  My morning self Reiki beneath the covers was especially deep, soothing and warm. Puppies nuzzled my face and we all emerged to greet this day of 1-11-15.

In Angel Number meanings, 1-1-1 has great significance. It is a message and a time to be especially attentive to our thoughts and feelings. We are encouraged to focus upon what it is that we truly want and desire to create in our lives and in the world. This morning feels like a perfect time for that deep soulful attention, reflection and creation.

I’m in the midst and mist of a serene, deeply inward morning on this calm, cleansing and rare rainy day here in our Mojave Desert. The rain drops are dancing on the top of the pool water, cascading from the roof and creating a beautiful symphony of soothing flowing music.

Loving life this morning and feeling at peace. It’s a blessed experience for this 1-11-15 day. Yes, peace IS more of what I wish to create within myself and within our world. As we each take responsibility for creating our own inner peace, the outer world responds and transforms in kind. I truly believe that.

So this morning and today, I will look upon these sweetly inspiring images that are meaningful to me and lovingly, intentionally focus upon what I wish to create. Like the steps in my home and backyard, I’ll remind myself to take one step and one breath at a time. There’s no rush, no need to over do….simply to BE and to follow the guidance of my own inner compass. Now is the only time I have. Everything in life has led me to this moment, and this moment will be the foundation of everything that is yet to come. I’ll sink deeply into “this moment” with PRESENCE marrying both my Being and Doing from this.

Blessings for peaceful moments to each of you and all~ways, always…. So Much Love. D*

There Are Lives That Only You Can Touch

“Because your existence in time and space is unique, there are lives that only you can touch.”

WOWZA!!!! That message really hit home, soul deep, for me… I felt the resonance of it when I first read it and recognized how very true it is.  We are each created with purpose and unique potential. This message and image conveyed it for me in a powerful way unlike few other posts or pieces I’ve encountered.  It struck home on a very energetic, pure inner level for me ~  bypassing ego or anything else that might have wanted to question my significance.

This message and image originally came to my attention when Marilyn Hager’s Facebook post was shared by my dear friend Audrey. I then humbly borrowed the image and offered it on our Conscious Connections NOW community page. It was heartfully received by many, and it prompted a dialogue this morning that felt very important to share. I asked my friend LeeAnne if I might quote her so that I could offer this conversation here. She kindly and immediately said, “Of course.”

I am so deeply thankful for conscious aware connections with people and the way we are each supporting one another in awakening to our truth, meaning, contributions and potential in life. I believe our conversation will ‘hit home in you. This is something we all feel at times and sometimes too often… Here is this morning’s conversation:

LeeAnne Fontana Montes  ~  Often times, I think people wonder if they really make a difference in the world. When you bring it down to such a personal level, it really changes how you answer that.
I’m never going to be Mother Teresa, but any time I make someone smile, or do a kindness, I touch the life of someone who might not have had that moment if I hadn’t been there.
Profound

LeeAnne’s open self-aware message brought forth  my own soulful reply.

  DeAnne Wolfgram ~~ So often people discount their own contributions believing them to be insignificant or at least not substantially important… THIS really struck me when I read it realizing that we may never know our impact on the world at large through the people we touch, but our seemingly small contributions are really and truly THE BIG stuff of Life. We are doing The Great Work in the purest of personal ways. IMAGINE a world where everyone was this aware of their PRESENCE and brought this level of BEINGness to living every day. That’s the world we are creating.


  • I agree. I’ll never be Mother Teresa. Her soul signature isn’t mine, but The Way she went about her work in the world IS the model for us all. She focused on one person at a time, the one right there with her – the one whose heart called to hers. That IS what the masters each demonstrated.

    I witness your mastery honey. The world needs you the way you are. The world needs us all and what we uniquely bring.  Love

    So Much Love

 

Mistakes are Divine

A sweet friend began this month of December with the admission of a ‘mistake’ and it brought to mind this offering from last year all over again.

My whole-hearted belief is that she and her seeming mistake are completely DIVINE. I have no doubt that it will prove to have been an action of perfection as her path unfolds in the coming months. Things ALWAYS truly do happen for a reason.

This all reminded me to be far more fearless, even more than I have become this past year.

Brave, vulnerable, courageous, loving authenticity will most certainly give an opportunity for ‘mistakes’ but seriously…. that is how we learn. When I was a Montessori teacher, I used to ask my students at circle time “Are mistakes bad?” The replies were always interesting. Eventually, we would talk about how… by making mistakes… we learn. We are always learning and living….

So yes…. Savor a few mistakes today and Be Compassionate.

Sending cascades of Love to you All. D*

DeAnne Wolfgram

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“Mistakes, issues, challenges, problems…
These just show how divine you really are.

Now that, is deeper than it may first appear.

Beethoven’s 5th, please -”
The Universe

November 13, 2013: My morning message above from the Universe (TUT.com) prompted this post today.

Day#13 ~ On this lucky day, I am thankful for recognizing the blessings of mistakes…….

I read on a blog’s comments this morning: “Admitting mistakes is divine. Regretting mistakes is destructive.”

I recognize all those dark moments of being self-destructive in my own life, mired in regret and self-judgment over perceived mistakes.  Now, I am profoundly thankful for the deeply compassionate person in me that loved herself out of that self-imposed prison.

I am actually thankful now for the blessings of that heavy time… It created far more lightness in my life, and I dare say more enlightenment also. I’m thankful too for all those who loved me through…

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Past the Point of No Return

Music so often provides a potent message lyrically and melodically for me….. It always has.

Often I’ll awake in the morning with a very particular song playing through me. Today, one overcame me suddenly in the middle of the afternoon. So now, after listening to it sing inside for over an hour, I’ll simply share it with you.

Something about right now…. today…. calls out with the anthem, “We’re past the point of no…. return….”  As I said, this musical message began surging through me an hour ago and has continued for the entire hour++…… Maybe it sings to more than just me, for reasons that I can only imagine….

Past the Point of No Return…..

This verse especially calls out: “
Past the point of no return, no backward glances
Our games of make-believe are at an end
Past all thought of ‘If’ or ‘When’, no use resisting
Abandon thought and let the dream descend”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AyyCz9z1s_M

Go away for the trap it is set and waits for it’s prey.
You have come here
In pursuit of your deepest urge
In pursuit of that wish which till now
Has been silent
Silent.

I have brought you
That our passions may fuse and merge
In your mind you’ve already succumbed to me, dropped all defenses
Completely succumbed to me
Now you are here with me
No second thoughts
You’ve decided
Decided.

Past the point of no return, no backward glances
Our games of make-believe are at an end
Past all thought of ‘If’ or ‘When’, no use resisting
Abandon thought and let the dream descend

What raging fire shall flood the soul?
What rich desire unlocks its door?
What sweet seduction lies before us?

Past the point of no return, the final threshold
What warm unspoken secrets will we learn?
Beyond the point of no return

You have brought me to that moment when words run dry
To that moment when speech disappears into silence, silence
I have come here hardly knowing the reason why
In my mind I’ve already imagined our bodies entwining
Defenseless and silent now I am here with you
No second thoughts, I’ve decided, decided

Past the point of no return, no going back now
Our passion play has now at last begun
Past all thought of right or wrong, one final question
How long should we two wait before we’re one?

When will the blood begin to race
The sleeping bud burst into bloom?
When will the flames at last consume us?

Past the point of no return, the final threshold
The bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn
We’ve passed the point of no return

Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime
Lead me, save me from my solitude
Say you’ll want me with you here beside you
Anywhere you go let me go too, Christine that’s all I ask of you

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Songwriters
Andrew Lloyd Webber;Richard Henry Zachary Stilgoe;Charles Eliott Hart
Read more: Phantom Of The Opera – Past The Point Of No Return Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Giving AND Receiving

I am so very grateful to have some kind, capable people here at our home helping to care for our landscaping today and tomorrow. We are do-it-yourselfers here usually (though we simultaneously are always fostering community in our home and our lives…)

I am now recognizing those moments when our self-care and contribution includes employing others to help with tasks that would take us a very long laborious time to complete. It’s actually another form of fostering community. It allows us to engage in other areas of our lives while receiving help and contributing to someone else’s abundance. As two eldest children, we’ve been accustomed to hard work, dedication and doing things ourselves – from building this home to landscaping the acre and on…..and on…

Today, I am appreciating RECEIVING help and KNOWING that while my husband enjoys a day in nature (which he dearly loves) neither he nor I are having to prune, lift, dig, fix irrigation lines, uproot or haul. We’re not being lazy. We’re actually contributing. I’m not sure I’d completely thought of it that way before this moment.

APPRECIATING that perspective and feeling deeply thankful for all the ways we humans give and receive…..

KEEP SHINING

The moon last night was an extraordinary and other worldly experience. I looked up to see a magificent full ring around her in the sky. There was a feeling of being pulled in by this luminous magnificence. I’ve admired beautiful lunar sights before yet never experienced anything like what I saw and felt last night. It was almost transportive. Even my mother-in-law was overwhelmed with the energy she felt when she gazed at it.. What a cosmic encounter, from our own backyard.  I stood there for a few moments with my heart and arms wide open.

Have you had any potent celestial experiences recently?  The autumn skies seem ripe with magic to harvest, day and night.

I have read very briefly from a couple sources that these next two weeks will have us immersed in some very potent even life changing energy…on a personal and collective scale… beginning with tomorrow’s Full Moon Eclipse on October 8th.

May you feel yourSelf immersed in a genuine depth of Love beneath the luminous moon and radiant sun… We are made of that same celestial stuff. KEEP SHINING. xo

Ooh-oo child ~ Things are gonna get easier

Here’s a Musical Message for Today. ❤

This spontaneously began singing in me yesterday out of nowhere, right after I’d had my own challenging feelings of major worry arise… It is not a song I ever think of, so I immediately felt the calm of my own higher wisdom and precious unseen comforting.. ❤ It was very much like angelic music straight to my heart in that moment. May it comfort you too. D*

Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna be easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get be brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna be easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get be brighter

Some day, yeah
We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Right now, right now
(You just wait and see how things are gonna be)

~The Five Stairsteps – Ooh Child