Cusco: A Clearing & Homecoming

June 18, 2023 ~ Our Hidden Inca Tour: Peru & Bolivia guided tour began with an early morning bus ride to the airport and our flight from Lima to Cusco.

Our personal experience of the tour began with some very strange happenings. After breakfast, we discovered that we were locked out of our room with all of our luggage still inside. New keys, a visit by the manager and a review by the maintenance person didn’t resolve the problem. We were beginning to get stressed and nervous as our tour group was to be loading onto the bus for the airport in minutes.

Meanwhile, my intestinal tract was feeling off. We didn’t just need our luggage in the room. I needed a bathroom. While Brian learned that our lock mechanism on our room needed a new battery and was resolving that with the hotel staff, I made a dash for the restroom in the hotel lobby.

Brian made it downstairs with our luggage just as everyone began loading onto the bus. I was still in the restroom with the intestinal issues. Then, as I went to leave the bathroom, I couldn’t get the door open. OMG! I was locked in the restroom. After a minute or two of trial and error, I finally got the door open and we sprinted out to the bus.

For the first time in Brian’s life, he was the last one to arrive somewhere. We were the final two people to get on the bus.

Our flight to Cusco and arrival there had more happenings and a sacred experience as well….

We were relieved to be on our flight and excited for the journey ahead.

Brian settled into the flight and took a nap. I had a little more adventurous trip. As I gazed out the window with our plane cascading over the Andes Mountains, I was suddenly overcome with emotion and this deep soulful feeling. Somewhere inside of me I heard the words, “I’m coming home…. I’m coming home…” In that instant, tears began to stream from my eyes.

Not long afterward, I felt a strong surge of energy and an accompanying sense of nausea. Luckily, the woman seated next to me had asked for sick bags for her teenage son who is prone to motion sickness. Thinking that preparedness was a good idea, I had asked for two as well. Thank goodness I did.

For the first time in my life and out of the clear blue nowhere, I got sick into that bag on the airplane. I was so subtle about it that Brian kept on napping and didn’t notice. He only awoke when I attempted to go to the lavatory and was turned back due to turbulence as travelers were asked to take their seats.

My sickness continued as we arrived into Cusco on Day One of our Hidden Inca group tour. Once we landed, I headed straight to the restroom as Brian collected our luggage. A kind former teacher from Canada who was on our trip asked after me and kept an eye out on me in a nurturing motherly way for the rest of the day.

Once on our bus ride, I continued feeling unwell. By that point, my hubby was keeping a keen loving eye on me too. Astonishingly, once again, I grabbed for another sick bag that I had tucked into my purse and emptied my stomach. Then, I learned how much my husband really does love me. He actually offered to hold my bag filled with the contents of my stomach. Yes, he is a former fire captain and advanced EMT, but still…. that is a next level kind of love offering. I thanked him and held it myself.

Once we got to the hotel, I again headed straight for the restroom after receiving our tour headphones and putting my full bag in a trash can. As I sat on the throne, I listened to the opening remarks of our group gathering that was transpiring in the hotel meeting room.

Thankfully, I soon felt well enough, just in time, to join our group for the sacred ceremonial opening of our Peruvian experience. Our shaman Wilco dressed head to toe in Incan priestly regalia spoke of the significance of Cusco. Our tour host and author Brien Foerster (who has been a presenter on the History Channel show “Ancient Aliens”) had told us about Wilco at the orientation and shared that Wilco is a ‘rare individual.’ He is part of an unbroken line of Incan shaman going back to the 15th century before the Spanish conquered Peru and annihilated much of the Incan and pre-Incan culture. Those Incans, who had lived, had quietly kept their wisdom alive for generations. Wilco was the latest in that line of wisdom bearers.


As I took my seat in the semi circle surrounding our tour’s shaman and the special altar he had created, I listened to Wilco speak (via translation by our tour manager Gustavo). Wilco shared with warm reverence and emphasis that “Cusco is the womb of Mother Earth. In Cusco, each of us connects our umbilical cord to the womb of the earth.”

Again, emotion welled up in me. Each of us were asked to share why we were here, in Cusco and on this trip to Peru. With tears streaming down my face, I said, “Cusco has called for a long time, and I feel like I’m coming home.” Wilco looked at me with one of those gazes that feels like someone sees right into your soul. I humbly, tenderly smiled and then listened as each person took their turn sharing.

Incredulously, the only other person to have tears arise was our tour guide Brien Foerster. He had not seemed an especially emotive person, but when he spoke of his desire to right the wrongs done to the Peruvian people by the Spanish his heart was keenly pouring out through his words. As I listened while staring at the back of his head, I took note that only he and I had cried, and he was sitting directly in front of me as my heart resounded in my chest. That connection formed a quiet, simple bond that seemed to continue though much of the Peru experience.

After our sacred opening ceremony, my loving Brian and I went to our hotel room. At first, I immediately shifted into my common resiliency mode and thought I could join the first walking tour of our trip; however, after several minutes, I realized that self care was my priority. Brian offered to stay with me in the hotel room, but I encouraged him to go on the walking tour of Cusco on behalf of both of us.

And so he did, lovingly taking photos to share with me. While he was away, I reached out to a dear friend who was right there messaging with me as I went through a poignant heart opening and energetic clearing experience.

Yes, I seemed to be in the midst of a Montezuma’s revenge sickness, or given that I was in Peru rather than Mexico maybe I should call it an Athaulpa’s revenge experience. In any case… I was genuinely sick, likely from eating a quarter size piece of lettuce with my ceviche at a local coastal restaurant the day before. Still… this truly felt like more than a food issue body clearing.

My keenly intuitive friend validated my sensing and encouraged me to ground myself by putting my bare feet on the floor. As an enormous cascade of tears poured forth, she lovingly held space from her home in Montana as I went through this experience in Cusco, Peru. We both knew this was a potent clearing on many levels. She quietly continued holding space from a distance while I went through my process on my own.

This clearing would open me up to the energies of Peru and its ancient places. I had longed to come to Peru for over two decades. Not only was my prayer answered but the land was obviously preparing me for a more authentic, genuine energetic experience. I slept for fourteen hours in our hotel room.

The next day, I would share with Wilco and Brien individually that it felt as if I had an Ayahuasca experience without taking Ayahuasca. They both understood me. Brien remarked that Cusco calls deeply to some people. Quietly he recognized my calling. By the end of our Peruvian journey, I had more sense of our gentle shaman’s understanding as well.

Qoricancha – photo via Peru Hop

My beloved husband had returned from the walking tour of Cusco as the sun set. Brian shared what he remembered of the heart of Cusco ~ Qoricancha, and the roads through the city as well as the presenters’ discussions of pre-Incan megalithic construction and Incan stone building.

My love warmly shared the photos he took for me and what he had learned from the local anthropologist, our tour guide and more. Though I hadn’t set foot in the heart of Cusco that day, my heart felt full and so very grateful. It was the beginning of a meaningful and long awaited adventure, and I am so grateful for how we shared it together



Here is one resource that discusses Qoricancha:
https://www.peruhop.com/coricancha-sun-temple/

Sacred Site of Pachacamac

On the coast of Peru 32 kilometers south of Lima lies the sacred site of Pachacamac. For two thousand years, this ancient city was an administrative and religious center and place of pilgrimage for ancient Andean cultures including the Inca. Historians have referred to Pachacamac as the “Mecca of Peru.”

“….the enormous site with its great pyramidal temples, buildings, old roads, remains of frescoes decorating the adobe walls and other interesting archaeological structures (that were erected over a time period of over 1000 years by different cultures) gives visitors an astonishing insight into the society and lifestyle of people living in the area.

….several temples, buildings and a part of the Inca road system have already been excavated while other structures wait to be discovered,

It was a major pilgrimage destination in the coastal region and attracted worshippers from all over the Inca Empire; at least until the Spanish conquest.

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The god Pachacamac was known as “the one who animates the world” and “the Maker of the Earth” for the coastal peoples. This sacred wooden statue of Pachacamac was worshipped at the site in early Lima culture.

The revered statue was situated inside a large temple complex that was built on a stepped earthen platform. This artifact of Pachacamac was a significant discovery for archaeologists. Veneration of the god Pachacamac was at a zenith when the Inca blended their culture with the early Lima culture of the time. With this spiritual tradition at its height, the Incas actually incorporated Pachacamac into their culture as well.


The image above shows an excavated road in the ancient city of Pachacamac. It is part of the original Inca Royal Road according to archaeologists and was the main street of Pachacamac. In 1533 Spanish conqueror Fernando Pisaro walked these streets looking for treasures before violently bringing an end to the longstanding reverence of Pachacamac and destroying much of the ancient Lima culture here. Thankfully, some artifacts, mummies and pieces of their sacred traditions did survive.

My husband, Brian, and I marveled at the pyramids, roads, plaza, artifacts and sacred culture of all the ancient Peruvian coastal peoples of Pachacamac.

Our tour of this special place came at the beginning of our three week Peruvian adventure. In the final days of our travels, we would learn that Pachacamac was considered the most important sacred ceremonial center of ancient Peru. That brought a significant full circle awareness to our experiences in this extraordinary country.

Resources for more on Pachacamac:

https://pachacamac.cultura.pe/

https://www.worldhistory.org/Pachacamac/

https://www.limaeasy.com/lima-guide/lima-culture-guide/huacas-adobe-pyramids/archaeological-complex-of-pachacamac#google_vignette

Sacred Summer 2023

Summer 2023 has been full of profound experiences and travel adventures for my husband and I.

It’s extraordinary to me to realize that we explored many ancient and sacred sites of Peru and Bolivia including Pachacamac, Sacsayhuaman, Ollantaytambo, Machu Picchu, the Nazca Lines, Puma Punku and Tiwanaku and then journeyed to the ancient puebloan, sacred center of Chaco Canyon in the southwestern U.S. ~ all in the same summer!

I am honestly in awe and filled with deep gratitude.

I am continuing to integrate and absorb these significant experiences as well as enjoying other small travels this summer. Usually, I would have written and shared countless photos of our adventures already. This summer’s travels have felt different for me, and I am truly taking my time with them.

In the coming weeks and possibly months, I will be offering photos and stories of these sacred places and our experiences. I look forward to sharing this with you.🌀

Thank you for joining me here, and thank you for journeying with us.

Grief & Love Persevering

How does one return to life after being visited by death?

For me, that answer has been gradually… sometimes messily then at moments abundantly or sporadically but at all times feeling that something has dramatically and inalterably changed about my life. Those who have navigated deep grief ~ over any type of loss ~ understand.

Several times, I had thought to write more fully about my journey and experiences of the past three years, but it seemed daunting, and I thought, “Later.” Now……. feels like later. So… this is my beginning Now to share some of what I could not begin to share until Later. New life is emerging in earnest now and yet it isn’t too late to share about death.

Death and grief, that tandem duo have danced through my life and the lives of those I love over the past three years.

Like everyone’s story in recent years, it began in 2020….. The shock of a global pandemic and the fear-filled collective uncertainty placed us all in the cross hairs of grief. We were shot through the heart with it, all of us. Personally, I was feeling all of that, AND it was augmented by a complete uprooting of my home and life simultaneously. My previous share “Moving Through This” speaks to that.

As I gain a wider perspective now, I see the continual and ongoing persevering that we have all been doing for years… that I have been doing for years. It seems that we have been adapting to and navigating through one traumatic event and pivotal change after another. It has been a gauntlet.

For our family, that year of 2020 concluded with our adult daughter moving out on her own in September and my husband’s mom undergoing open heart surgery in early November just a few weeks before we would complete the building of our new home. During our home building, I was still grieving the loss of the prior beloved house we had built together and just left after 15 years. Now I was also grieving the loss of having my daughter at home, as all empty nest moms know too well.

Life was in flux everywhere it seemed. Still, my resilient self was at the forefront. On November 2nd, I sat in the hospital waiting room as my mother-in-law was in surgery while her son diligently worked on crucial final details of our home build. Days before Thanksgiving 2020 we brought mom home to the rental house we were in, and the day after Thanksgiving we moved her into our newly built home to stay with us until she was recuperated enough to live on her own at her apartment. Home building and coping with an empty nest amidst a global pandemic while helping our mom through her health crisis was A LOT…

We had no idea how much we would get used to “a lot.” And as I offer that, I am certain that ALL OF US can say that!! We had no idea how much we would get used to “a lot.” Everyone I know has been through so very much in recent years. It really has just been “a lot!!!”

Being in our new home was a genuine blessing, but I couldn’t use the common phrase of “settling in.” There wasn’t a settled feeling about life then and wouldn’t be for a long while. Death and grief would knock on our door… again… and again.. and again……………….

Three months and three weeks after moving into our new home, my dad died suddenly, wrenching my world apart on the inside. One year, two months and a day after that, my husband’s father also passed. The impact would be with him everyday. Their nearly daily phone calls had come to an end. Together, my husband and I held continual space for one another’s deep grief.

In between the bookend deaths of our fathers, my last maternal uncle made his transition less than six months after my dad. Two months and a day after my uncle’s passing, his lifelong friend, his brother’s best friend and my much loved honorary uncle died as well. Two months and a day after my honorary uncle passed, his sister-in-law, my lifelong cheerleader and my kindred spirit, honorary aunt also made her transition.

My dad’s sudden death was a seismic, high magnitude earthquake in my life (and in the life of my brother and so many family and friends.) That earthquake was followed by aftershocks galore as it seemed one death after another came. It felt like dad had opened the door and one loved one after another had followed him, until my husband’s dad closed it gently behind him (for a while.)

Grief IS all that love we want to give to the one we’ve lost. Grief IS immense love with no place to go. Where there is grief, there has been great love. Grief, then, truly is love in a different expression.

After all, “It can’t all be sorrow can it?….. What is grief, if not love persevering?”

(Vision from the WandaVision television show.)

I could go on… and on… about the impacts of all these deaths and my journey through the grieving process. If you’re a friend of mine on Facebook, you’ve experienced that of me already. Still, this is not anything to be minimized or glossed over.

Coping with grief, death, profound losses of any kind and dramatic sudden change are all important and significant. Our society as a whole is ill-equipped to do so well, and we are ALL greatly in need of genuine care and support in navigating the grief strewn mine-field of life that we are living through now. We all need compassion and care, for ourselves and others, as we continue to return to life day after day with so much ongoing uncertainty, grief, loss and change. And so…


May we find that what has been heart breaking can be heart opening and connect us with one another anew. My belief is that it truly can. It is our shared humanity in earnest.


In time, I sense that I’ll share more of my personal journey of grief, grace and growing through it all.

For now, I simply wanted to share this glimpse of my own landscape of recent years. There has been so very much that has been meaningful and to be celebrated as well… and that even includes death’s knocks at our door. Through it all, love perseveres.

Sending you so much love.

~ DeAnne

Moving Through This….

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I wrote the words below over three years ago, in April of 2020, and never published them…

 

Thinking back to that time, we really were “moving through this”… a global pandemic, national upheaval, pervasive uncertainty and more.

At the time, I remember constantly thinking to myself “and we are moving through this.”  The moving truck was coming soon.  Our family’s move was imminent.

“Moving through this…” was symbolic of the world coping in a collective unknown, and it was our personal reality. 

 
Our family was literally and physically uprooting ourselves from our home of fifteen years during the extreme uncertainty of the first month of a global pandemic. We were moving into a rental house before starting the process of building our new home…. during a global pandemic. Phew!

 

These words I wrote then were my attempt to give some perspective to it and simultaneously reassure myself:

“So it turns out that a time of home confinement, during a global pandemic, is actually the perfect time for a family of three to finish packing up their entire home of fifteen years while simultaneously having the man of the house recovering from arm surgery…….

 
It isn’t the most calming thing though.
 
There are plenty of unknowns to navigate as the close of our home sale and move approaches, but we are definitely collaborating as a family and persevering through moments of all kinds of moods and modes.
 
One conversation at a time, one box at a time, one to-do-list item at a time, one decision at a time…. and we are moving through it together and soon moving on…
 
We are gonna look back on this time and be awed by how we each navigated our lives.  I’m not just talking about our family trio here. I’m talking about every single one of us.
 
We each have our stories of perseverance right now.”
 
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And in reading my own words three years later…. I realize how true they were and continue to be.

Today ~ an Epiphany

I awoke this morning recognizing how odd this day felt.

Having the first anniversary of the attack on our nation’s Capitol coinciding with the holy day of The Epiphany (Three Kings Day or the day of the Magi) just seemed so strange and confusingly symbolic on a deep energetic collective level.

In some Christian faiths, this is a day to honor the divinity and humanity of Jesus. In most, it is the day that three wise men acknowledged the Christ child.

With America currently in its first Pluto return since the very founding of our country, it is certainly a profound time of facing our shadows, recognizing our lights and reassessing ourselves and our nation.

So….. I lit a candle and allowed its flame to burn all throughout this day.

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Epiphany is the final day of the twelve days of Christmas.

I feel a call to a deeply collective healing and awakening in the alignment of events and energies present on January 6th now.

Today marks one of the earliest and longest celebrated Christian holidays.

Today is the day of the Epiphany (that honors the divinity and the humanity in the Christ child and thus the Christ consciousness in us all) and this is the day that honors a Trinity of wise ones who journeyed far to meet and acknowledge that child 

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 and that Truth within us All. 

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From early this morning, throughout the day and into this night…. this candle has burned bright amidst the recollections of great darkness.


Its flame still burns as I write these words with the night sky enveloping and the stars twinkling from afar.

May the coinciding of these historic events be meaningful in actualizing ‘a more perfect union’ within each of our hearts, across this country and throughout our world.

Epiphany also means a moment of sudden revelation or insight.

On this day in America, now known to have had an incite of violence, may we now experience an insight of awareness and an epiphany of divine and human recognition within ourselves and one another.

May this day become an even truer day of an “Epiphany” in our hearts and in our modern times…



With So Much Love, DeAnne

For more understanding of America’s Pluto return, feel free to read this January 2021 article by Divine Harmony, https://divineharmony.com/astrology-blog/usa-pluto-return-transformation-of-a-nation-2022/

WE The People are U.S.

Being a first time Election Day line worker at our neighborhood polling location was a wonderful and memorable experience.

The entire day went smoothly with a well run process indoors and outside. Observers even commended the voting process at our location.

Personally, I was thrilled to experience the friendly collaborations of our fellow Election Day staff as well as the appreciation and patience of the voters at our site. I got thanked so many times throughout our twelve hours assisting voters.

The community atmosphere was inspiring!

Even our line worker moments of having to remind people to distance, wear masks and take off political hats or campaign masks went well and were received respectfully.

My own vision and intention to hold space for an entire day of unified honoring of our democratic process truly did come true. The staffers at our location each expressed similar appreciation and so many voters did too. 💗🙏🏼

This experience was inspiring.

WE The People are a Community.

I witnessed it in person all day!

Thank you each for voting! #WeThePeopleAreTheUnitedStates

Toltec Wisdom Renewed

The Fifth Agreement

I am appreciating listening to Peter Coyote narrate the wisdom in Don Miguel Ruiz and Don Jose Ruiz’s book “The Fifth Agreement.”

This is the follow up to the evolutionary wisdom of “The Four Agreements.”

Hearing this, it settles into me at many levels. Practicing it transforms life.

Grateful for this renewal of my awareness and use of all the agreements.

Today, I brought the actual book with me as well. Soaking this in….

All these agreements are so seemingly simple and yet are such a profound lifelong practice. Renewing my practice today.

And… The timing of this fifth agreement is perfect for right now. “Be Skeptical, but Learn to Listen.”

These Agreements are lifelong guidance. After twenty years, I continue learning to live them.

  1. The First Agreement: Be Impeccable with Your Word
  2. The Second Agreement: Don’t Take Anything Personally
  3. The Third Agreement: Don’t Make Assumptions
  4. The Fourth Agreement: Always Do Your Best
  5. The Fifth Agreement: Be Skeptical, but Learn to Listen

Love you G-G

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On July 17, 2020, this very special woman made her transition. Our “G-G”, Brian’s grandmother and Lauren Claire Wolfgram‘s last living great grandmother, was one heck of a woman.

Marge Wolfgram had an incredible hearty laugh and could get you rolling with her humor and delivery. Her keen mind was sharp into her 90’s, and she lived independently until just the last few weeks of her life. G-G’s cookies were always plentiful, as were her hugs. I’m so glad we had the visits that we did over the years despite living across the country from her.

Lauren and I are so very, very thankful that we were able to have this finale conversation with her via Zoom on June 12th just as G-G began her at home hospice care. On this day, you wouldn’t have imagined she was anything but one thousand percent healthy, sassy, smart and fun. She was. This conversation was amazing. The laughter was constant and G-G told us how much she loved us and how much she loved being in our family. I can’t imagine a more perfect goodbye, unless we had been able to hug her one last time.

Marge gave her entire family the gift of these special goodbyes, visits and chats before she passed. I’ve never known anyone who made their transition in quite a way as this, but then again, G-G was quite a woman.

Having her wish me a Happy 50th on the video Lauren made for my birthday was absolutely unforgettable. Of course, I bawled instantly, knowing she wouldn’t be with us for long as she made her wonderful and (of course) humorous wish to me.

We shall miss her. I shall miss her, but I know she is having some wonderful reunions right now. Marge has a huge family and countless loved ones, here on earth and in Heaven.

I’m so incredibly grateful that she and I were able to share two very special conversations in the final months of her life. Our shared sass, appreciation, humor and love was a blessing.

Thank you G-G. Blessed journey on… We love you so.💗

“All My Life’s A Circle”

“All My Life’s A Circle”

This circular experience of Life…. and our Circles of Connection feel very present today. These lyrics have been singing within all morning. Enjoy! ☀️

“All my life’s a circle, sunrise and sundown
Moon rolls through the night-time till the daybreak comes around
All my life’s a circle but I can’t tell you why
Seasons spinning round again, the years keep rolling by

Seems like I’ve been here before, and I well remember when
I’ve got a funny feeling that we’ll all be together again
No straight lines make up my life, all my roads are bends
There’s no clear-cut beginning and so far no dead ends

I’ve found you a thousand times, I know you’ve done the same
Then we lose each other, it’s like a children’s game
If I find you here again the thought comes through my mind

Life is like a circle, let’s go round one more time” 🌀

With So Much Love and Deep Gratitude.
Blessings to You Today, and Always.

“I’ve got a funny feeling that We’ll All Be Together Again…” xoxo🌏

DeAnne

‘Circle’ by the late great Harry Chapin