Soulful Scatological Awareness

My modus operandi in life is to continually focus my lens (be it camera or personal perspective) toward what can be appreciated.IMG_8951

Today, I am going to appreciate that I’ve managed to deal with a lot of shit. AND, when I say shit, I mean it literally….
(as well as emotionally, physically, mentally, empathically, psychically, soulfully etc.)   We ALL have. The shit’s getting real! And…’the shit’ is about BEING REAL.

There’s a lot of soul awareness happening in this scatological humouring of life here.

Honestly, it’s been a crappy few weeks in several ways.
We’ve all been feeling that, both personally and globally. We are all dealing with our personal and collective shit…. Some of it is even spewing close to home in various ways.

Here at my home, I really have honestly been dealing with actual “shit.” The parallels just now began to make me laugh with awareness. I’ve been cleaning up seemingly endless, and continual, dog poop for twelve plus days now. I can actually begin to laugh at life’s stinky straightforward ‘in your face’ message.

I get it. It’s time to deal with our shit!!!

For this woman born in the Chinese Year of the Dog, I’m feeling like my own two dogs are giving me that message loud, clear and full-on smelly messy. On 11/11, my daschund/chihuahua mix, my soul pup Kizmet, had just been pronounced fully healthy and healed from her frightening ordeal after inadvertently ingesting rat poison weeks earlier. Then the day after being given this clean bill of health, my inquisitive dog’s phenomenal olfactory acuity led her to another ‘not so great’ tasty treat. I kid you not, the morning immediately after being cleared of that month-long un-fun scary adventure, she got into my husband’s partially zipped canvas work bag to feast on an entire quart-size Ziploc bag of freshly made elk meat jerky. My hubby let me know about it and warned me to keep an eye on her. I thought she’d processed it swiftly with the one enormous blowout she had later that evening. I was wrong. After a week of constant diarrhea, Kizzie was finally clear of her anal adventures. I breathed a sigh of relief….literally. That relief lasted just one day. THEN….our other tinier dog began her own version of those same rear-end adventures. I’m guessing she ate a few pyracantha berries off a bush in the backyard (even while being closely monitored by we humans.) Ugh… I’m at a loss to know what’s up. I just know that my sweet Yorkie, Misty, woke me in bed five days ago by messing everywhere – in the bed with me. Yeah…. YUCK! Disgusting pretty much describes it. And now, I’ve been washing sheets, pillows, towels, cloths, floors, rugs and doggie beds for days straight. Today, I’ll take this one into the veterinarian to get checked out. Hopefully, she is nearing the end of her own genuine “shit” storm.

PHEW!

And…while all this “shit” has been pervading our home, I’ve been moving through clearing more old ‘shit’ from my psyche. I’ve been bravely and clearly witnessing old emotional patterns and dynamics coming up within myself and with many people in my family and circles of friendship. Compassion reigns but there’s still shit to deal with…

Yeah… seriously, I am claiming success in dealing with shit right now. Giving myself a genuine inner Amen To THAT!!

Offering the same full-fledged HiGH Five to each and everyONE of you that are courageously owning who you truly are and dealing with the sometimes stinky ‘shit storms’ that ensue when you do. Believe me, it might feel and smell bad for a time and yet ‘in the end’ it feels SO incredibly clean and clear to be real, healthy and genuinely authentically ourselves. I feel the next level of that coming ON full throttle for me now. Inner ‘Thumbs up’ for myself there!

By the way, those of us who are dedicated to being aware, conscious and ‘beautifully messily’ divinely human all know that we’ve got to take full responsibility for our lives. That means recognizing and processing our own shit while being compassionate with ourselves (and others) and simultaneously loving ourselves into our unique humble magnificence. Sometimes, amidst all that, our best teachers and healers are our loving animal companions.

An energy healer mentor once shared with me that animals are such profound, compassionate beings and healers that they will “take on” the excess energies of humans in order to balance any extremes of energy around them. It is a natural role for them, one of protection, healing, love and balancing. It was an epiphany for me at the time.

That awareness just came to me again today…. Hopefully, if my two sweet soul pups did take on some of my emotional clearing energy the past two weeks, then they have cleared it through their own systems now. Let’s hope that “shit” is done.

And now… after enough years of diving deep to clear my own emotional shit and doing my own inner work, I know that the filthy stuff, be it dog poop or inner crap, truly will not last forever…..

It feels good to remember that. “This too shall pass….” (and sometimes it does have to go through the intestines to do so. LOL!)

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A Little Sunday Morning Buzz ~ Hummingbird JOY

It is a lovely Sunday morning as I’m enjoying my solitude and freedom to be. I went into our backyard to savor the outdoor beauty before the Mojave Desert summer heat magnifies… Sitting to begin a blog post about recent angelic-like experiences of grace, I was graced by a joyful friend, our sweet resident hummingbird ‘Buzz.’

He flew over to me again and again, then perched upon the branch of my patio lemon tree just two yards away. His radiant purple head turning to and fro as he watched me and settled into his spot. I was happily looking for images to accompany the article that I ‘thought’ I was writing this morning…. And Buzz began singing out with that ultra-high pitched expression unique to these ethereal feathered beings…. He talked and sang with full joy and presence. He called my attention to him and my own beingness joined his. I was immersed in the shared peaceful, joyful, abundant moment and talked to him with gratitude and happiness. He was completely basking in life, so was I. Tears gently cascaded down my cheeks… What a big little gift!

Buzz, in his joyful hummingbird way, reminded me of so very much this morning. JOY ~ it is abSOULutely my inherent natural state of being, when I allow it to fully flow. I’m known for being effervescent, bubbly, energetic and full of big love. I truly do love sprinkling joy and opening hearts. Many of my dearest friends and my family refer to my hummingbird essence. It was precious to feel that magical communing with my totem and my loyal feathery friend today…

Buzz has been a joyful constant presence around our home for years, coming right up to each of us at various times and even flying into our house once. (His hummingbird family members have flown right through the door and into our home at times too.) Buzz is definitely part of our family and enjoys making his presence known around the homestead.

He had my mother–in-law rolling with laughter on two different memorable occasions. One Christmas morning, I went to the back of our property to welcome her down to open gifts. Walking toward her I held an open water bottle, Buzz zoomed by me suddenly right next to my head. Startled, I threw my hands up in the air… Up went the water.. Down went the water… and splashed all over me. I got baptized by a joyful hummingbird on Christmas morning. My husband’s mom had wished for a video recording of it. She couldn’t stop laughing. After the momentary shock, I was laughing uncontrollably too. It was symbolic, hilarious and unforgettable. She commented that Buzz came so fast and so close that she thought he was going to get me right in the head… That too was significant at the time..

The second occasion where Buzz made a big impression was weeks ago in late spring. My husband was out in the backyard enjoying a morning coffee chat with his mom. Buzz came over as he often does to drink out of the feeder there on the table inches from her. On his way, he paused over my hubby’s coffee cup and relieved himself. Belly laughs ensued as my guy insisted he couldn’t believe the hummingbird had just taken a dump in his coffee… His mom was gaffawing… She couldn’t wait to tell me about it and laughed uproariously all over again when she did…

Yep, JOY…. sassiness….sprite-like effervescence, persistence, friendliness, family and far more… that is our Buzz…. and that is me. I so appreciate the way our animal companions come to us with their lessons of nature and our own nature… Now mind you, I don’t plan to poo in my hubby’s coffee anytime soon, but I will tell you that Buzz and I both are all about reminding ourselves and others to have fun, be light, look for the joy, bring laughter, savor the delicious beauty and radiate your bright colorful authentic selves.

I love that kind of BuZzzzzzzzz…..
Brilliant Buzz

The Message: Feminine Collaboration

Today the topic of feminine collaboration was at the forefront.  I journaled and the subject was top priority as the words flowed.  Posts on Facebook, an email with a friend, conversations on the phone, through it all the topic continued to rise to the surface.  On this day of a New Moon, it appears feminine collaboration is on the rise.  477906_10200865239649859_1525624570_oIn timely synchronicity, I also openly shared from my heart two potent messages in a group of women I value.  This included a vulnerable newer level of authentic transparency I had not offered of myself to them before today. It was at first unnerving to be that open, but before I pressed the ‘return’ button to share it, I breathed inward to the center of my Being.  I trusted myself to speak my truth and did it. The experience was empowering, and it did foster a collaborative essence among those women. When we are authentic, we truly do create the space for others to be the same.

In my collaborative work with Sacred Circle Retreats, this topic was right there today too. We have been planning an Awakening Woman series for a long while, and those plans have now materialized in a 5 week course being offered in early 2014. Illuminating-Essence-by-Lisa-KubikThe registration just went live this weekend. http://bit.ly/AwakeningWoman

We are readying ourselves to collaborate at a whole new level.

All around me I see this collaboration, or the challenge to achieve it, unfolding.  We are birthing a new paradigm.  And  today, this ‘birthing’ theme was evident too. As all these exchanges took place among women in my circles, a dear friend gave birth to her long-awaited dream-come-true baby girl. Another friend announced the birth of her granddaughter. The births were twenty minutes apart.

The simultaneous unfolding of all of these events today was awe-inspiring and even a bit energetically overwhelming. I found myself continuing to trust, open up, breathe and allow what wants to be born ~~~ in me, through me, among those I interact with, and in concert with those I collaborate often.  More and more I find myself trusting and allowing it all  to come to life in the world.  That was my additional birthing lesson today. What an extraordinary time we are living in now. Much is being born. Many are awakening to their power to create, and their ability to collaborate.

The day, for me, was full of momentous messages of many kinds, phone calls, conversations, announcements and deep open sharing among many women in my life.  I spoke with, wrote to or messaged with a wondrous array of friends today amidst much news and awareness.  One friend spoke of having a cold. I was reminded of my own process the past two weeks. The parallels were there. I mentioned having had strange shoulder pain and difficulty sleeping last night. She gasped and relayed that she had experienced the very same thing with the same shoulder and sleep issues as well.  I can’t say I understand everything that transpired today, but it was quite something. To add to the synchronicities, my dear friend Jackie L. Robinson shared this timely post at Sacred Circle Retreats, the virtual retreat forum where she and I collaborate with several wondrous women to offer a safe sanctuary for sharing, transformation and personal evolution.  Here is her post. It was all about feminine collaboration:

Sacred Circle Retreats


Awakening Woman – http://bit.ly/AwakeningWoman

I walked from the computer after sharing Jackie’s Sacred Circle Retreats message to see a Hawk perched on the wall behind our house eating her dinner. The sunset’s light was cascading, the mountain was colored behind her and she was illuminated. Image

Oh my goodness….. The hawk is symbolic of the messenger. Yes, I definitely received the message today, and I am taking it in.  And this too was yet another synchronicity, one of my dear friends shared on Facebook earlier that a red-tailed hawk had swooped close over her head hours earlier. She was overcome by the close encounter. I felt the same with my sunset friend and had yet another magical bird encounter earlier.  That one came via a text from one of my closest friends.  She had a visit from a roadrunner just as we began sharing our text conversation. The last time a roadrunner had come to the window of her Texas home was exactly two weeks ago today when she and I were having a Skype conversation.  She hadn’t seen one since then and here it returned again as we conversed. She and I marveled at it’s appearance. Hawks and a roadrunner… feathered friends of all kinds are making significant appearances. Native Americans and many cultures speak of animal encounters bringing teachings, lessons and messages.

So, yes, Winged Ones….of all kinds… I am listening… I am paying attention.  I am open to the messages you bring. I am thankful, and I am in awe…… The message today was to give birth to collaboration.

YES. LET US ALL COLLABORATE NOW.

A Winged One and a Prayer

This little one gave me a memorable morning. I was sipping my coffee when I heard a loud bang at the front of the house. I knew instantly that some winged one had hit the big picture window of our  dining room. With heart-dropping trepidation, I went to look.Laying on it’s side, with dazed eyes and rapid breaths was this lovely little red finch. My heart went out to her. I dropped down onto my knees and gently scooped her up into my hands. I sat there for many tearful minutes while I gave her Reiki and warmed her shocked tiny body. As she layed there in my hands, she continued blinking and soon her body calmed and her breathing slowed. When I tried to move and get her over to the sunlight, she startled so I placed her down. I went for my camera then and took this photo.

My Little Friend: Red FinchI felt there was something memorable happening.

I sat down indoors in our study moments later when suddenly I heard a ‘meow.’ Our homestead cat had found her, but I was quicker. I calmly dashed through the front door and caught him by the scruff of the neck just as he was about to pounce on her. He melted in my arms. I hugged him and told him I loved him, but he wasn’t allowed to get her. I brought him inside the house to insure it.

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The sweet finch was on my mind and heart for a long while this morning. Every so often I looked out the window to check on her. Time and time again, I saw her still recuperating in this spot, breathing but not moving. Each time I said another prayer for this tiny one, sent loving energy and hoped. After a while, one look out the window warmed my heart. She was gone. She had recovered and flown away….I’ll never know if she goes on to live a full life or if this trauma impacted her too much. I do know I was here when she needed help and I gave the love, healing and prayers that I could. That’s all we can ever ask of ourselves – to love those who need it who are near us and who cross our paths in this life.
LOVE HEALS.
LOVE IS our natural state…..
I know love transforms trauma, grows plants, allows winged ones to fly, gives birth to babies, makes dreams come true and so much more… EVERYTHING REAL ~ LOVE IS.
Much love all, DeAnne