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Today, I honor it all

 

Today I honor a very personal anniversary, the 19th one in fact.   This special day marks nineteen years since passing through the portal of having cancer in my womb and enduring a sorrowful give-away at the age of 27.

What a passage it was, and continued to be, long after that fateful day nineteen years ago.  I still remember it vividly. I’m certain I always will.

What I know now is that I am a wiser woman for having had to give my womb away at such a tender age and live without the fulfillment of my dream of a second child. I am wiser for the courage it called forth in me and for the compassion it drove home in my core. It IS indeed our wounds that allow the light in and allow it in ways that we would never have dreamed of….

I may not have given birth to another child, but I did give rebirth then and many times since to this woman that lives in my body. She knows a way of loving now that is far more expansive than any body’s womb could ever have held. That give-away led to a gift that I continually give and receive now, through my way of being in life and through what I am able to give life to in other ways.

So today, for all that it carries in meaning for me, I honor it.
I light this candle and I honor it.

I honor the wisps of grief and tenderness that remain, even after nearly two decades.
I honor the dreams and the unanswered prayers.  I honor the prayers that came to be and the little life that did not.

I honor BEING alive myself, living the blessed life that I have.

I honor my husband and daughter who’ve been with me through that and much more.
I honor my family and friends who encircled me then and now.
I honor those with whom I’ve walked the path of life, whether it has been for a few moments or for many years.

I honor all the myriad of experiences, feelings, realizations, lessons and evolutions that have been lived these past nineteen of my forty-six years of this life.

I honor my own process of living, now more than ever before, and I honor the woman that I Am with all my scars, flaws, frailties, insecurities, eccentricities and uncertainties that are partnered with my continual courage, compassion, creativity, myriad talents, softness, strength, intelligence, intuition, flowing and deepening knowing.

I honor all that I continue to discover and to offer.
I honor life lived authentically and lovingly.

Today, I honor it all.

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Ooh-oo child ~ Things are gonna get easier

Here’s a Musical Message for Today. ❤

This spontaneously began singing in me yesterday out of nowhere, right after I’d had my own challenging feelings of major worry arise… It is not a song I ever think of, so I immediately felt the calm of my own higher wisdom and precious unseen comforting.. ❤ It was very much like angelic music straight to my heart in that moment. May it comfort you too. D*

Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna be easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get be brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna be easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get be brighter

Some day, yeah
We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll get it together and we’ll get it all done
Some day
When your head is much lighter
Some day, yeah
We’ll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun
Some day
When the world is much brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Ooh-oo child
Things are gonna get easier
Ooh-oo child
Things’ll get brighter
Right now, right now
(You just wait and see how things are gonna be)

~The Five Stairsteps – Ooh Child


Love Wisdom

The Love Wisdom  ~ of Mother Teresa & Princess DianaImage
 “Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.”
~ Mother Teresa

“I knew what my job was; it was to go out and meet the people and love them.”
~ Princess Diana

“If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.”
~ Mother Teresa”

I think the biggest disease the world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of people feeling unloved. I know that I can give love for a minute, for half an hour, for a day, for a month, but I can give. I am very happy to do that, I want to do that.”
~ Princess Diana

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” ~ Mother Teresa

“Every one of us needs to show how much we care for each other and, in the process, care for ourselves.” ~ Princess Diana

“…do small things with great love.” ~ Mother Teresa

“I touch people. I think everyone needs that. Placing a hand on a friend’s face means making contact.” ~ Princess Diana

“Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to do the humble work.” ~ Mother Teresa

“Helping people in need is a good and essential part of my life, a kind of destiny.”
~ Princess Diana

“Intense love does not measure, it just gives.” ~ Mother Teresa

This heart wisdom is shared in honor of these two divinely mothering souls and in remembrance of their passings so close together in 1997 ~ Diana, August 31st and Mother Teresa, September 5th 1997.

May their wisdom and example remind us how TO LOVE IN THIS WORLD. 
~ DeAnne Wolfgram, Conscious Connections NOW

At the time that Princess Diana and Mother Teresa passed from this world, I was living with cancer of the womb. I was aware of the legacy of love and the empowerment of mothering that these women represented at the very time that I was letting go of birthing more children.  There was a soulful feeling of significance for me then.  I continue to feel it. To this very day, I feel a calling to “spread love” everywhere I can. ~ DeAnne

Sacred Resonance

Sacred Resonance

Savoring Sacred Resonance ~

Pause for a moment.
Let those thoughts drop away.
Breathe.  Allow.

Melt into this Moment.
Feel the Trust… 
Be The Love…
Breathe it in.

Coming home within is that simple. Truly it is…. 

It is Sacred Resonance.

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This deep, sacred feeling of presence filled me this morning on a rainy autumn day in the Mojave Desert.  In moments like this, stillness resides and awareness infuses; at times,  inspiration pours through…  I know that this simple verse will help me spiritually center and focus at other times in the future.  Just remembering the glow of this candle, the rain cascading outside and the feeling of presence will allow me to connect back to it once more. I am thankful for this stillness and savoring these moments of sacred resonance.

A Broken OPEN Moment

“Let love guide you into the next broken open moment.”

One of my dearest friends, soul sisters and collaborators at Sacred Circle Retreats wrote this message this morning:

“We are all being nurtured and guided by Divine Feminine energy to expand our heart space. Let go of the idea we need protection from heartbreak…as the continual expansion cannot be contained.  Welcome the coming changes without expectations. Let love guide you into the next broken open moment. M*”

I am experiencing this today…Thank you for this message and guidance Melynnda, Edgy Mystic.

As I slowly take my time to place lights on our holiday tree and allow my entire body its healing assimilation from an extended cold, I was listening to a Super Soul Sunday episode. It features Mark Nepo. I had watched another with him yesterday, and I marveled at the timing of Jackie sharing her gorgeous Prayer post by him at Sacred Circle Retreats today. Oh how our lives so often parallel with our dearest ones. We all know that well.

Moments ago listening to Mark discuss his journey through cancer and how we have all experienced loss in some way my heart broke open even further. He said, “What opens us is never as important as what it opens….” I was awash in tears as the rain continues to cascade outside. For me, memories of the trials of cancer, the loss of bearing children and all those other seemingly overwhelming moments of challenge in my life just melted into right now. I AM HERE BEING.  I am here being more of who I always wished to be, accepting the constancy of change and flow, of uncertainty and fresh awareness, of it All. I looked down at all the colorful Christmas tree lights in my hand and felt that Christ that lies within us all. The blessed tears still flow… There are those moments when we truly bless the journey and where we are in the moment, and we feel the PRESENCE residing within and through it all. This was one of those moments.

“What opens us is never as important as what it opens….” ~ Mark Nepo

Yes, truly ~ “Let love guide you into the next broken open moment.” M*

It’s All Sacred

I am appreciating that one of the very first labyrinths I walked in this life was here at THE labyrinth of Chartres Cathedral, France. What a journey ~ then and now.

BLESSING ALL THE JOURNEYS ~ withIN and around us all. ♥

“IT’S ALL SACRED……”

June 1, 2013 marked the one year anniversary of this beautiful blessed moment. The expansive realization I received here ~~ as light from the cathedral’s window cascaded upon me ~~~ was “IT’S ALL SACRED……”

I had traveled across the world to walk ancient paths and experience sacred sites on a Divine Feminine, spirit connecting, heart-expanding and soul deepening journey….

It was a complete and extraordinary experience in so many vast, indescribable ways… A year has still not been enough time for me to understand and assimilate it all… And yet, the sweetness of this moment stands above and apart from it all…… as it was purely my own inner knowing and guidance from beyond the veil of this world.

I heard within me the stirrings of a light, amused, wise voice saying…. “Yes, all these places are wondrous ~ cathedrals, grottos, pilgrims paths…. Now you know they are all within you. This beauty, this grace, this connection to oneness…. is always there, and it is everywhere you will ever be. You needn’t seek out marvelous cathedrals of stained glass windows… You can and you will relish the beauty; but know this….. you know this now…..
IT’S ALL SACRED.”

This moment came after arriving at the center of the labyrinth at Chartres Cathedral. I was filled with reassurance and a deeper sweeter confidence in my own inner guidance. Indeed I had walked into my own center within. Upon walking out of the labyrinth, a light had genuinely and physically infused me as the sunlight shining through the magnificent stained glass window at the front of the cathedral beamed down upon me, directly on my forehead.

It remains a deeply sacred experience.

photo of DeAnne Wolfgram, June 2012, Chartres Cathedral Labyrinth

A Winged One and a Prayer

This little one gave me a memorable morning. I was sipping my coffee when I heard a loud bang at the front of the house. I knew instantly that some winged one had hit the big picture window of our  dining room. With heart-dropping trepidation, I went to look.Laying on it’s side, with dazed eyes and rapid breaths was this lovely little red finch. My heart went out to her. I dropped down onto my knees and gently scooped her up into my hands. I sat there for many tearful minutes while I gave her Reiki and warmed her shocked tiny body. As she layed there in my hands, she continued blinking and soon her body calmed and her breathing slowed. When I tried to move and get her over to the sunlight, she startled so I placed her down. I went for my camera then and took this photo.

My Little Friend: Red FinchI felt there was something memorable happening.

I sat down indoors in our study moments later when suddenly I heard a ‘meow.’ Our homestead cat had found her, but I was quicker. I calmly dashed through the front door and caught him by the scruff of the neck just as he was about to pounce on her. He melted in my arms. I hugged him and told him I loved him, but he wasn’t allowed to get her. I brought him inside the house to insure it.

Smokey
The sweet finch was on my mind and heart for a long while this morning. Every so often I looked out the window to check on her. Time and time again, I saw her still recuperating in this spot, breathing but not moving. Each time I said another prayer for this tiny one, sent loving energy and hoped. After a while, one look out the window warmed my heart. She was gone. She had recovered and flown away….I’ll never know if she goes on to live a full life or if this trauma impacted her too much. I do know I was here when she needed help and I gave the love, healing and prayers that I could. That’s all we can ever ask of ourselves – to love those who need it who are near us and who cross our paths in this life.
LOVE HEALS.
LOVE IS our natural state…..
I know love transforms trauma, grows plants, allows winged ones to fly, gives birth to babies, makes dreams come true and so much more… EVERYTHING REAL ~ LOVE IS.
Much love all, DeAnne