Today, I honor it all

 

Today I honor a very personal anniversary, the 19th one in fact.   This special day marks nineteen years since passing through the portal of having cancer in my womb and enduring a sorrowful give-away at the age of 27.

What a passage it was, and continued to be, long after that fateful day nineteen years ago.  I still remember it vividly. I’m certain I always will.

What I know now is that I am a wiser woman for having had to give my womb away at such a tender age and live without the fulfillment of my dream of a second child. I am wiser for the courage it called forth in me and for the compassion it drove home in my core. It IS indeed our wounds that allow the light in and allow it in ways that we would never have dreamed of….

I may not have given birth to another child, but I did give rebirth then and many times since to this woman that lives in my body. She knows a way of loving now that is far more expansive than any body’s womb could ever have held. That give-away led to a gift that I continually give and receive now, through my way of being in life and through what I am able to give life to in other ways.

So today, for all that it carries in meaning for me, I honor it.
I light this candle and I honor it.

I honor the wisps of grief and tenderness that remain, even after nearly two decades.
I honor the dreams and the unanswered prayers.  I honor the prayers that came to be and the little life that did not.

I honor BEING alive myself, living the blessed life that I have.

I honor my husband and daughter who’ve been with me through that and much more.
I honor my family and friends who encircled me then and now.
I honor those with whom I’ve walked the path of life, whether it has been for a few moments or for many years.

I honor all the myriad of experiences, feelings, realizations, lessons and evolutions that have been lived these past nineteen of my forty-six years of this life.

I honor my own process of living, now more than ever before, and I honor the woman that I Am with all my scars, flaws, frailties, insecurities, eccentricities and uncertainties that are partnered with my continual courage, compassion, creativity, myriad talents, softness, strength, intelligence, intuition, flowing and deepening knowing.

I honor all that I continue to discover and to offer.
I honor life lived authentically and lovingly.

Today, I honor it all.

This Moment

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I awoke this morning to the soothing sounds of rain cascading down upon our Mojave Desert.  My morning self Reiki beneath the covers was especially deep, soothing and warm. Puppies nuzzled my face and we all emerged to greet this day of 1-11-15.

In Angel Number meanings, 1-1-1 has great significance. It is a message and a time to be especially attentive to our thoughts and feelings. We are encouraged to focus upon what it is that we truly want and desire to create in our lives and in the world. This morning feels like a perfect time for that deep soulful attention, reflection and creation.

I’m in the midst and mist of a serene, deeply inward morning on this calm, cleansing and rare rainy day here in our Mojave Desert. The rain drops are dancing on the top of the pool water, cascading from the roof and creating a beautiful symphony of soothing flowing music.

Loving life this morning and feeling at peace. It’s a blessed experience for this 1-11-15 day. Yes, peace IS more of what I wish to create within myself and within our world. As we each take responsibility for creating our own inner peace, the outer world responds and transforms in kind. I truly believe that.

So this morning and today, I will look upon these sweetly inspiring images that are meaningful to me and lovingly, intentionally focus upon what I wish to create. Like the steps in my home and backyard, I’ll remind myself to take one step and one breath at a time. There’s no rush, no need to over do….simply to BE and to follow the guidance of my own inner compass. Now is the only time I have. Everything in life has led me to this moment, and this moment will be the foundation of everything that is yet to come. I’ll sink deeply into “this moment” with PRESENCE marrying both my Being and Doing from this.

Blessings for peaceful moments to each of you and all~ways, always…. So Much Love. D*

Desert Goddess Deanne

Sacred soul writer Anna wrote this of and for me…… “She moves in her own way” and she moves me with eveything she writes. What a gift to see into another’s soul and write it alive to share with the world… Love you and bless you for speaking my soul language. xoxo

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We have danced

many lifetimes

to the beat

of a shamanic 

circle

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drumming our

heartbeats

feet pounding

the earth

in holy 

ritualistic

trance

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and hypnotic

entering

of all dimensions.

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As fierce Spanish

lovers in

the most intense

stare as

our bodies

twist and

glide towards

each other

in a sultry

flamenco

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with fire

in our feet

and our hearts

burning in

longing

and passion.

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Guitar rising

to the desire

and matching it

note for note

step to step.

A dance of 

fusion.

Your dance

has my giddy

with excitement

and expectation.

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Every dance

has it’s unique

energy

though

no matter the steps

or lifetime

the connection

remains.

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You see yourself

so clearly

and in this

lifetime you

waited for me

to awaken.

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You are the hot desert sand

running through

and hour glass

and over my 

writhing body

the heat too much

almost as you

exfoliate and renew

my…

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HOLY, Holy, holy….

St.Sulpice

This moment and this precious sacred image called to be shared in honor of this Easter weekend 2014.

This remains one of my favorite images from my glorious divine feminine journey through France in 2012. I will never forget my solo sojourn through St. Sulpice in Paris, France days after walking in Magdalene’s footsteps.

I could sit and gaze upon this beautiful Pieta for hours… So much stirs of Beloved Love, Divine Union and a Sacred Lineage…. It is mesmerizing to behold.

 

Love Wisdom

The Love Wisdom  ~ of Mother Teresa & Princess DianaImage
 “Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.”
~ Mother Teresa

“I knew what my job was; it was to go out and meet the people and love them.”
~ Princess Diana

“If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.”
~ Mother Teresa”

I think the biggest disease the world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of people feeling unloved. I know that I can give love for a minute, for half an hour, for a day, for a month, but I can give. I am very happy to do that, I want to do that.”
~ Princess Diana

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” ~ Mother Teresa

“Every one of us needs to show how much we care for each other and, in the process, care for ourselves.” ~ Princess Diana

“…do small things with great love.” ~ Mother Teresa

“I touch people. I think everyone needs that. Placing a hand on a friend’s face means making contact.” ~ Princess Diana

“Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to do the humble work.” ~ Mother Teresa

“Helping people in need is a good and essential part of my life, a kind of destiny.”
~ Princess Diana

“Intense love does not measure, it just gives.” ~ Mother Teresa

This heart wisdom is shared in honor of these two divinely mothering souls and in remembrance of their passings so close together in 1997 ~ Diana, August 31st and Mother Teresa, September 5th 1997.

May their wisdom and example remind us how TO LOVE IN THIS WORLD. 
~ DeAnne Wolfgram, Conscious Connections NOW

At the time that Princess Diana and Mother Teresa passed from this world, I was living with cancer of the womb. I was aware of the legacy of love and the empowerment of mothering that these women represented at the very time that I was letting go of birthing more children.  There was a soulful feeling of significance for me then.  I continue to feel it. To this very day, I feel a calling to “spread love” everywhere I can. ~ DeAnne

Eternal Flame

May the eternal flame burn brightly.

May it spark more souls to Peace.

May it ignite more hearts to live their own “Profiles in Courage.”

May it forever remind us to honor and live our own legacy.

We honor this today, on this day, November 22, 2013 ~ the 50th anniversary of the passing of the torch, as visionary President John F. Kennedy left this world. May his eternal flame burn brightly forever….

.JFK's Eternal Flame ~ Arlington

~ DeAnne Wolfgram, Conscious Connections NOW

photograph: “Eternal Flame”, DeAnne Wolfgram 2008

Note: This blog post and message were shared at 11:11 AM PT, November 22, 2013.

Holding Hands & Hearts

Holding Hands & Hearts

This is a time like no other.  Holding hands and hearts is important and potent.

~ DeAnne, Conscious Connections NOW

It’s All Sacred

I am appreciating that one of the very first labyrinths I walked in this life was here at THE labyrinth of Chartres Cathedral, France. What a journey ~ then and now.

BLESSING ALL THE JOURNEYS ~ withIN and around us all. ♥

“IT’S ALL SACRED……”

June 1, 2013 marked the one year anniversary of this beautiful blessed moment. The expansive realization I received here ~~ as light from the cathedral’s window cascaded upon me ~~~ was “IT’S ALL SACRED……”

I had traveled across the world to walk ancient paths and experience sacred sites on a Divine Feminine, spirit connecting, heart-expanding and soul deepening journey….

It was a complete and extraordinary experience in so many vast, indescribable ways… A year has still not been enough time for me to understand and assimilate it all… And yet, the sweetness of this moment stands above and apart from it all…… as it was purely my own inner knowing and guidance from beyond the veil of this world.

I heard within me the stirrings of a light, amused, wise voice saying…. “Yes, all these places are wondrous ~ cathedrals, grottos, pilgrims paths…. Now you know they are all within you. This beauty, this grace, this connection to oneness…. is always there, and it is everywhere you will ever be. You needn’t seek out marvelous cathedrals of stained glass windows… You can and you will relish the beauty; but know this….. you know this now…..
IT’S ALL SACRED.”

This moment came after arriving at the center of the labyrinth at Chartres Cathedral. I was filled with reassurance and a deeper sweeter confidence in my own inner guidance. Indeed I had walked into my own center within. Upon walking out of the labyrinth, a light had genuinely and physically infused me as the sunlight shining through the magnificent stained glass window at the front of the cathedral beamed down upon me, directly on my forehead.

It remains a deeply sacred experience.

photo of DeAnne Wolfgram, June 2012, Chartres Cathedral Labyrinth