Stand in the Center of Your Beingness

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Many of us have enormous hearts and big visions.  We long to see people living their fullest expressions united together in genuine collaboration with mutual trust, authenticity and acceptance while working together toward common goals.  Many of us are continually taking action and creating this in our personal lives, communities and careers.  I am.

This vision begins… within.  Many of my colleagues and friends are embracing their own empowerment. They are continuously learning, teaching and modeling the “true power” that comes from withIN.  We are in a time now for discovering this power inside ourselves, each and every ONE of us.

It’s also true that ‘discernment’ is key.  Empowerment relies upon us listening to and heeding the direction of our own inner compass.  Others may not respond well to this.  They may truly prefer us unempowered.  We must empower ourselves anyway and learn to collaborate.  I had many lessons around this in 2013 and the early days of 2014 and witnessed many more. This is not always easy to navigate and those who teach it are continuously learning themselves.

One instance, one lesson in particular, was immensely challenging for me personally.  I know I will continue learning and growing from it for a very long while to come.  I also know now that even though my heart may carry a true message (of healing community, allowing forgiveness and renewing love) I must be clear and discerning about how, where and when I share it.  I did not do this entirely well in that instance and yet I trust some universal plan has unfolded.  It seems it had to happen.  I am called now from deep within to truly walk my talk now.  I bless that situation with Love and let go.  The energy of possibility and limitless love allows for so much that I cannot see.  I will trust that. I will act now from renewed integrity to myself and others.  My inner compass is recalibrated.  I appreciate what I have shared and learned. Now, life moves forward. There is no going back to what was. There is only what IS and creating what will BE.

I know I can choose and continue to choose to believe in people and the higher vision while being discerning in the day-to-day living of life. Trusting my own intelligence and inner hit of intuition is key and all of us are learning that more and more.  As I wrote in a personal post weeks ago, I have never in my life burned any bridges. Relationships flow and change with the fluid nature of Life and growth, within us and around us. May we always bless them with love. They may be only for a reason or a season or they may return to us with renewal. Let us remain open to possibility yet always true to our own knowing, our own inner compass.

We all continuously learn and grow yet must always take responsibility for the energy we bring into each moment of life and give out to others in thought, word and deed.

Love is the constant and the ultimate truth to live by. Kindness is key.  What we do to others, we do to ourselves.  It’s time to realize how truly interconnected we are. We have got to walk our talk!

One of my dearest friends, Edgy Mystic Melynnda, a trusted colleague/peer/mentor/sister/friend, said to me in early December 2013, “All that triggers separation is not from Source. Stand in the center of your Beingness.”   That phrase of wise insight simply poured through her. THAT was empowering and a powerful validation at the time. It continues to be.

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My own father once told me I was THE most nonjudgmental person he has ever known. One of my best friends agreed yet told me I had often saved all of my judgment for myself. Now, I have had a lifetime of learning about the energy of judgment.  I simply can’t inflict that type of violence on others or myself anymore.  Intentional loving choices prevail more now, from the inside out for me. There’s plenty of imperfection along with plenty of gentle strength, integrity, ever-deepening wisdom and profound love.

I will continue to renew and do this.  May we all “stand in the center of our own Beingness.”

It’s truly empowering to know we get to choose for ourselves, every moment of every day, with every thought, every word and every action. We are that powerful. We get to choose.

I CHOOSE LOVE….. over and over and over again in every moment that I can…..

I choose to create from that place and collaborate with others who make that same choice.

I CHOOSE LOVE.

Now let’s create that world we envision, one choice at a time, together.

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A Broken OPEN Moment

“Let love guide you into the next broken open moment.”

One of my dearest friends, soul sisters and collaborators at Sacred Circle Retreats wrote this message this morning:

“We are all being nurtured and guided by Divine Feminine energy to expand our heart space. Let go of the idea we need protection from heartbreak…as the continual expansion cannot be contained.  Welcome the coming changes without expectations. Let love guide you into the next broken open moment. M*”

I am experiencing this today…Thank you for this message and guidance Melynnda, Edgy Mystic.

As I slowly take my time to place lights on our holiday tree and allow my entire body its healing assimilation from an extended cold, I was listening to a Super Soul Sunday episode. It features Mark Nepo. I had watched another with him yesterday, and I marveled at the timing of Jackie sharing her gorgeous Prayer post by him at Sacred Circle Retreats today. Oh how our lives so often parallel with our dearest ones. We all know that well.

Moments ago listening to Mark discuss his journey through cancer and how we have all experienced loss in some way my heart broke open even further. He said, “What opens us is never as important as what it opens….” I was awash in tears as the rain continues to cascade outside. For me, memories of the trials of cancer, the loss of bearing children and all those other seemingly overwhelming moments of challenge in my life just melted into right now. I AM HERE BEING.  I am here being more of who I always wished to be, accepting the constancy of change and flow, of uncertainty and fresh awareness, of it All. I looked down at all the colorful Christmas tree lights in my hand and felt that Christ that lies within us all. The blessed tears still flow… There are those moments when we truly bless the journey and where we are in the moment, and we feel the PRESENCE residing within and through it all. This was one of those moments.

“What opens us is never as important as what it opens….” ~ Mark Nepo

Yes, truly ~ “Let love guide you into the next broken open moment.” M*

Destiny, I’m ready now.

We are Ready!

We are ready to bring more of the fullness of our own unique “humble magnificence” to life. So many of us are feeling this surge of passion, purpose, courage and creativity.

What an EPIC time! What an extraordinary Life!
Ready to LOVE through every moment.

Thank You Destiny! We’ve Got This Now!!!!!

This fantastic post was shared this past Monday, November 18, 2013 by Melynnda Button, our Edgy Mystic of the virtual spiritual retreat forum Sacred Circle Retreats.

My fellow Sacred Circle Retreats guide Melynnda and I had just shared an immense, wondrous and even a bit intimidating personal session for me. I have felt the call to step up and step INto my soul purpose now. Together, we collaboratively discussed this and received insights. She encouraged me not to feel overwhelmed by what presented itself to and within me.

Less than an hour later, she posted this Destiny message.

I was smiling, tearing, beaming and KNOWING ~ this is true.

The days of following and playing small are done for many of us. It takes COURAGE TO BE all of who we are and who we came here to express and manifest in this world. Thankfully, so many of us are holding one anothers’ hands and hearts during this transformative time, encouraging each other to generate that inner courage ‘INcourage’, trusting our divine and inner guidance and following those nudges of our knowing within.

Lao Tzu said, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”

With inspiration, Melynnda shared this with me later the same day, “Each step forward strengthens the next.”

Step by step….. along our paths… the journey of life blossoms for us all.

Enjoy your journey everyone.
Your destiny is ready for you now, and you are ready to live it.

An Archetypal Journey: Empowering the Slave

A year ago in the Fall of 2012, I was taking archetypal journeys with some of my fellow guides at the virtual spiritual retreat forum known as Sacred Circle Retreats.  SacredCircleRetreats-banner-website-tagline-centeredA small group of us were delving into our personal archetypes in the style of Caroline Myss (author of “Sacred Contracts,” “Entering the Castle” and more.)  All of us have studied Caroline’s work and a few have a real depth of knowledge in her archetypal work following certifications and personal trainings with her.

Despite this level of understanding and scholarly aptitude, none of us were probably fully prepared for the chaos to clarity that our work together would yield for each one of us.  The process reinforced a quality Sacred Circle Retreats creator, Jackie L. Robinson has quoted from Caroline Myss many times, “We need to become souls with stamina.” Well we certainly did!  There were times where the mind definitely got in the way, where we were mired in confusion or doubt, where our unconscious Saboteur felt as if it was fighting us at each turn, or where we simply weren’t ready to go to those places inside ourselves.

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On the whole though, it was a time that brought each of us to much greater wholeness withIN.  Parts of ourselves that were in need of healing and harmonizing came to the surface. Within the sacred circle of trust we shared, we each embraced these unrealized selves within.  It was a powerful experience but not an easy one.  One of my dearest friend’s on the planet said this years ago, it is so true:

“Consciousness is not for sissies.”

Consciousness will bring you face to face with everything: the good, the bad and the ugly as they say.  And yet, once we shed light on our shadows and acknowledge both our darkness and our light, we blend all the players within us into a great symphony. The shadow and light become principal dancers and our life becomes a work of art. We then are our own masterpiece of creation.

For me personally, one of our shared archetypal journeys became gut-wrenching.  It struck a core part of myself that, once owned, brought me to a place of self-compassion and Grace I’d never known before. The getting there wasn’t easy, but like we’ve said, “Consciousness is not for sissies.”

It’s not important for me to share all the gorey details.  In fact, I don’t know that I could recall them anyway. What I do remember is recognizing that there was an enormous core part of me that had gone my entire life feeling like I was wrong and that something was profoundly wrong with me.  IMG_2034In this particular archetypal session, one of our original guides, Jen Guptil (who was one of Caroline Myss’ first Sacred Contract students) helped me hone inward and feel into the archetype that was located in my 4th house. This is the place on the Sacred Contract wheel that represents ‘home’ both the home we grew up in as a child, the home we’ve created as an adult and the home inside ourselves.  Having a double Cancer as my astrological sign (sun & rising), the sign most connected to home and family, this represented an important archetype for me to know and to own.  What I was not prepared for was the anguish I felt there.  I saw shackles and chains.  I felt deep judgment and woundedness, pain, fear, doubt, uncertainty, hyper vigilance, perpetual wrongness and a hopelessness that deeply ached.  As I described what came in visions and feelings, and shared a few painful experiences from my childhood and marriage, Jen asked the other guides if they sensed what she did. Intuitively Melynnda Button our ‘Edgy Mystic’ guide said, “Yes” and lovingly encouraged me.  She said, “DeAnne this is what you’ve been waiting for.  You can do this.”  Then gently, Jen said that she felt the archetype of The Puppet or The Slave here in the house of my Home.  The Slave???  I lived the archetype of the Slave in my home?  Jen emphasized too that this was the home I had created within myself  as well. No wonder, I had dealt with such horrific self-judgment for years.  I was reeling from the feelings that errupted from deep within me.  The journey that day had plunged me into body shaking sobs.  IMG_3903It was a catharsis like none I had ever experienced in my life.  It most certainly was NOT easy.  My fellow guides “held the space” both energetically and emotionally for me to come into this awareness and for that I can never offer enough appreciation.

We are all energetic beings, and these archetypal energies are part of our very Being. We have a dozen or so that are all those inner personalities and qualities within us. Once we understand, befriend and own them, we truly are whole and Holy in a conscious way.

That day, as I was feeling raw and torn wide open, a magical and miraculous synchronicity occurred. While I was immersed in assimilating the energy of ‘the slave’, my daughter literally walked through our door after school as ‘The Queen’ wearing a golden crown on her head. What an incredible juxtaposition for mother and daughter!  IMG_2092

She was beaming with excitement and self confidence.  Her name had been drawn at her high school’s Homecoming Assembly, and she was called down in front of the entire school to receive a gift basket as part of a community service acknowledgment. It included a golden paper crown that was placed upon her head atop her lovely golden curls.  Through most of her high school years, my daughter had been more of a kind, quiet, introverted academic and art student. It was unlike the vivacious, bouncy social butterfly she had been in her early years. She was happy overall at that time, just not as empowered feeling as she had once been. Something shifted for her that day. She was “seen” in front of her peers in a public way, and she was thrilled and amazed by it all.  I was so happy for her, and I was deeply grateful that she could appreciate her experience like that. I was also thankful that she could hear of my ‘slave’ awareness with compassion and that it didn’t diminish her joy. Again, we held space for each other and our personal experiences that day.IMG_2309

Later that night, after attending my daughter’s senior high school Homecoming football game, I would continue crying alone in my room until I slept and awoke crying once more. That day provided a core catharsis and awakening.  I remembered and assimilated so many parts of myself, so many ages and stages. DeAnneI remembered the young woman who had been her high school’s valedictorian and yet always carried such a fear of being wrong. I remembered the exuberant child who was fearless. scan0004I remembered the little girl who had been empathic and watched so many adults around her not feeling free to be completely themselves while living in a wounded world. I felt that girl adopting an inner slave inside. She had lovingly learned to please others, to bring joy and to bring more emotional ease around her.  If she could help keep them happy, she wouldn’t have to feel their hidden pain or experience unpleasant emotions. Unknowingly, she had enslaved herself, allowing herself to be inadvertently puppeted by the moods and expectations of others.

The empowerment of the ‘slave’ was in recognizing that this energy was present and that there was nothing ‘wrong’ with it ~ nor with me.  I had known too as a child that I was “a happy accident”, born of teenage parents. I knew that they refused the suggestion of having an abortion and been able to be great parents creating a loving family for my brother and I.  Of course we pick up the emotional tones of our parents and families, I could often feel the places in them where they felt enslaved and imprisoned, especially  in notions of needing to be perfect in some way.  In facing this ‘slave’ archetype, this awareness freed me.  Compassion infused me – for myself and for all of us who had ‘imprisoned ourselves’ out of fear.  I also believe in my core that we have CHOICE. We create these ‘Sacred Contracts’ with family even before incarnating. Recognizing that our souls CHOOSE to learn through these archetypes and alongside the people in our lives is an empowering idea when fully embraced.  IMG_8944I read up on the attributes of ‘The Slave’ and learned that while the shadow side was “giving your willpower to an external authority out of fear of making your own choices and lacking self-authority “, the light attribute to ‘The Slave’ was to become truly free by surrendering to the Divine, the Higher Power ,with complete trust.  Those with this attribute can become true servants of the Divine.  And I now knew that I possessed this quality in the heart of my home within. It was quite an awareness to assimilate and to begin to humbly magnify through me into the world. I continue learning.

I realized later how extraordinary it was, this day that my daughter and I played out the roles of the Queen and the Slave.  It was incredulously symbolic.  That day, I “came home” to that ‘home’ of my Sacred Contract, and it all occurred on the actual day of my daughter’s senior “Homecoming” game.  That day too, she, in turn, was “coming home” to the empowered Queen within her.  The dance of the universe is indescribable at times.

There is a divine timing in it all.

One year later, I would be joining 50+ women for an inaugural Heroines Journey Retreat where we recognized the Queens in ourselves and one another. IMG_7455_2

 It appears those archetypal journeys intertwined for me and came full circle one year later.

LIFE….. what a journey it is.IMG_7434_3

DeAnne Wolfgram
~ Creator, Facilitator & Guide – Conscious Connections NOW
~ Opening  Guide at Sacred Circle Retreats